I Can't Unlove You

2/27/2006

2/27/2006 04:21:00 PM

yup, i'm blogging about sad stuff again la. ): okay. why is everybody.. i dunno how to say la, so the biao mian on their blog. why can't they write something deep inside them? yes, they may be scared that other people may read and know their secret or something but are you just going to keep it inside forever? i know there are friends whom you all can talk to la, but.. hais. well for me, i think blog is pretty mush the only thing i can relate to. i mean okay friends, how many of them would actually sit down properly are listen to what you've got to say? few i guess, or maybe even none. friends. this topic. how many true friends do you actually have? how much do they actually know about you? how many do you actually trust? how many actually trust you? i mean, think about it la. hais. i'm just sad la, upon knowing how pathetic i am. and people actually said how united we are. it's just the outside can? i don't even know what's your favourite colour. the basic of all basics. and we hardly go out together. this is unite? think again. buying birthday presents. people nowadays don't really care about the meaning behind it already. they're just giving it for the sake of giving it. it's not even put into effort. then what's the point? they're just giving it because you're just her friend, or giving it because everybody else is giving it. wtf la. then when someone really make an efford to give that present, you people just don't appreciate it. fine. from the beginning of this year, i've learnt to be smart. forget about everything that i've done before. i'm not going to change la. it'll still be me eventually. oh well, maybe i should start to blog about happy things and not keep blogging about sad things like zhen zhi tagged.

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oh well, lets's talk about today. first is lit. then pe. today 6 rounds. fuck. and alot of ppl nvr come for pe. sitting at the side and watching us run like siao. okay la, some of them are really sick. then after running, do the ridiculous jump. i dunno if it really helps in the standing broad jump la. then after that music. oh, there's one thing i want to say. why everybody just seem to like jay so much? i mean i tried to listen to his songs properly but somehow i just can't relate to his songs or lyrics or how good he is la. is it influence that so many ppl like him or what. aiya, whatever la. no offence to zhenzhi la, i mean seriously, i don't get it la. maybe it's just my own preference. oh, then after music then recess. eat the damn spicy rice la. and once again i don't get it why ppl like. haha. then after that went to common test venue and mdm zhang let us revise. then after that had the history paper. it was okay la except for that stupid question about that french engineer with the suez canal thing. the name is like so long and she surpose us to write it down. only cynthia will go and memorize la i think. then after that the mr alan aw said he is going to teach us maths for 2 months like that instead of mr chia. i think his lesson is going to be real boring la. and the introduction thing, haha, he even make the effort to put up the slideshow. haha. then after that went to compass with cynthia. surpose to do something but in the end lost track of it. then i did a really bad thing but then.. forget it. it's not that bad actually. then went home. and here am i blogging. tomorrow's science and dnt test. omg, i'm so tired alr can. have a break, have a kit-kat. haha it's the first thing that pops up to my mind la. whatever. oh, and i'm going to do badly in my maths, maybe even fail. ):

and yet another meaningless post.

2/25/2006

2/25/2006 10:36:00 AM

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	4.7
Mind:	4
Body:	7.3
Spirit:	4.1
Friends/Family:	3
Love:	0.8
Finance:	3.9
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

well, what to say. my life suck la. :(

and yet another meaningless post.

2/22/2006

2/22/2006 09:16:00 PM

i realised that people who seem to be perfect just isn't. they too have their problems and difficulties. it's just a side of them which they present out. so don't assume anything by the outside.

oh well, today had geography and english ct. english paper.. just doesn't really inspire me at all. no ideas or whatsoever to write. the question was just plain. so i did question number writing about twins mistaken identity stuff. i mean that's the only thing i can think of with the question saying mistaken identity. for geog, i'm a little bit disappointed because some of the questions haven't been answered correctly when i know i have memorized it. wasted la.

then after school, went with cao shuang to rivervale mall to have lunch. i said original one then the person give me crispy one, wtf. oh well, then had angklung practice. we had to memorize the stupid damn notes and it just doesn't seem to get into my head la. had like one hour something to memorize it, but yar, still can't.

i don't like you, so don't think that i like you and keep avoiding me. it just doesn't work okay. you're thinking too much la. and by the way, i've completely given up on person a, so stop making me like person a back. since person a like you, so be it. i realised that person a prefers you. and that's the end of it.

and yet another meaningless post.

2/18/2006

2/18/2006 07:10:00 PM

ct is coming. and i think i'm going to fail. maths, geog and more. esp maths. although geog teacher is nice, it can't seem to get into my head. and homework is like so much, i don't even have time for revision. and alot of projects need to be handed up on 31 march. haiya, tired la. what to do. watching people failing to get triple science and all, it just.. i don't know la. anyway, next week mr lim is taking over mr pang for form teacher. shit la, haven't alter my belt. so many things to do can, don't even have time to come update alr. shit.

and yet another meaningless post.

2/09/2006

2/09/2006 07:56:00 PM

was flipping through some lyrics. and decided to post some of my favourite songs' lyrics here. haha, nothing to do what. (:

1. Where Did I Go Right?

I'm always too late
I see the train leaving
I'm always laughing
When it's not cool to smile
I'm always aiming
But somehow keep missing
So how did you get here
Something is wrong
[CHORUS:]
Where did I go right
How did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
And you found me
Where did I go right
How did I get you
I don't know how I did
But somehow now I do

I'm always driving
Forget where I'm going
Should have turned left
But I was singing some song
And I, I am arriving
As everyone's leaving
But there you are waiting
Something is wrong

[CHORUS]

Makes no sense to me
No it isn't clear
But somehow you're standing here
Something gets to me
It's that nothing is wrong

[CHORUS 2X]

2. Underneath This Smile

What I'm standing on is sinking in
And I don't have a clue how to get off of it
But when I look at you there is hope
It's like you see the sadness in my eyes
You read the blue between the lines
You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while
I'm hanging on
Cause that is all I know
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this smile

I have walked this earth with broken bones
I've been keeping secrets under all these lights
But when you're around my defenses go
You don't let me run away from you
You don't let me twist and turn the truth
It feels as if I'm naked when you're standing in the room
Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while
I'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this smile
Underneath this smile
Oh, yeah
Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while
I'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?Underneath this smile
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this
Underneath this
Underneath this smile
What I'm standing on is sinking in

3. I Am

I'm an angel, I'm a devil I am sometimes in between
I'm as bad it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I'm a million colors
Sometimes I'm black and white
I am all extremes
Try to figure me out you never can
There's so many things I am

Chorus:
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

I'm someone filled with self-belief
And haunted by self-doubt
I've got all the answers
I've got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I'm up and I am down
But that's part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things I am

Repeat Chorus

I'm a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm not sure who I am

Repeat Chorus x2

Of all the things I am
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I am

4. Break My Heart

Someone always gets their hearts stomped to the ground
This is what I see every time I look around
I never thought that this would happen to me
I never thought that I'll end up this way
And now that you're through with me
Don't know what to do with me
I guess I'm my own again
Like I'm some kind of enemy
Never a friend to me
Remember when you used to say
Things will always be this way

[Chorus]
Why don't you, break my heart
Watch me fall apart you see
I'm falling apart, look what you're doing to me

Now I'm trying to get my heart up off the ground
My confidence is gone
Happiness can not be found
So look what you did to me
You got the best of me
And now I'm stuck with all the rest
It will never be the same

Repeat Chor x2

All I ever wanted
Is look me standing here alone
It started with you and ended with me
All I ever needed
I had it with you in my arms
It started with you and ended with me
Break my heart
Watch me fall apart you see
I'm falling apart, look what you're doing to me
Why don't you, break my heart
Watch me fall apart you see
I'm falling apart, look what you're doing to me
Why don't you, break my heart
Watch me fall apart you see
I'm falling apart, look what you're doing to me
Why don't you, break my heart
Break my heart x7

and yet another meaningless post.

2/08/2006

2/08/2006 06:13:00 PM

you don't know how much it hurts inside. you just don't, okay. so shut up. what is wrong with you? i've tried to accept, be a so called good guy. buy i'm not a bad guy okay. i'm nice. think about it, how bad have i actually be. without knowing, just anyhow say. i'm tired of losing every single time, i'm tired of everything. it is just so.. i don't know, sad? yes, it's pathetic. i've haven't been archieving anything good since i was born. i wanted to make people change their point of view about me. but i guess i failed. people i like doesn't seem to like me, but other people. i mean i don't expect people to like me, just one will do. i will treasure. i've been trying hard. but i can't take the pressure. it's just so hard. how do you people did it. i don't know. some people just seem to get everything they want. why make life so hard for me. i don't expect to get everything i want, but just some will do. i promise i'll treasure it. and yes, i'm always in the wrong, happy?

i can't stand a lot of people now. they are just so annoying. first, person number one. who does she think she is la. you think you know everything, you think you're clever, whatever. i don't care. just don't piss me off by telling me what to do. like as if i really don't know. hello, i have a mouth. if i don't know, i can ask, ok? and your attitude, please change. okay, now i know why everybody hate you. to think i actually think you were okay last time. i guess i was wrong. don't act enthu when you're not. just one word, fake. and stop sticking to people when they don't want you to, and please, stop acting like you're very close to people. okay, next person number two. i'll go to you when i feel like it at some other posts in the future. go ahead, scold. i use to care, but not anymore.

and yet another meaningless post.

2/03/2006

2/03/2006 07:46:00 PM

school today was okay. but first thing in the morning we had maths and chinese test which i forgot to learn. my god, i wrote it in my spo okay. so chinese, i had a lot of blanks. and maths, inverse proportion is damn hard. ahh. okay, after recess had science and dnt. haha, stekch our design of the car last minute. then after that had cca. the sec ones came today. the games were okay la.. haha, i don't know what i'm talking about. then me, belinda, yanping and tania took the bus home. well, till then. (:

and yet another meaningless post.